Temperamental

Many people believe that a person shouldn’t be enjoying a specific moment that causes them happiness because there might be something bad that could happen, and I’m one of them. I believe in that too, before. But, I realized that I shouldn’t be scared of what might happen tomorrow, I should just enjoy those things right in front of me. It is better to cherish those than to regret them afterward, right?

My day started as boring as it is. Doing my usual morning routine then after that, feeling nothing. I am not happy or even sad, I just felt nothing. Feeling like that is one of the worst things for me actually because I’d rather feel happy, sad, or even angry than to feel nothing. Some may want to feel the numbness in them because they don’t want to feel the pain. Maybe, even the happiness, because they are scared to face the happiness they have right now thinking of what could happen worse tomorrow.

The important thing for me right now is to express how I feel, so I made this blog earlier this afternoon. My mood just goes from feeling nothing to feeling satisfied. I am finally able to vent out all the things that go on my mind every single time. Doing this thing is kinda risky because many people could read everything, some may judge and some may understand. Still, I am taking the risk of doing what I love and it is what I am doing right now. Like I said earlier, It is better to try than to regret afterward, right?

I am having my mood changes from time to time. Now, I am pleased because I am able to share my thoughts yet I am sad because of many things that go on my mind lately. After I published this post, I am sure that I couldn’t get sleep easily because of thinking. It is my night routine, I guess? To overthink things while sadness comes in. It usually happens so I’m okay with it, I used to handle things like that especially at this time of the day. I know I am not the only one who experiences sudden sadness at this moment. It usually occurs, right? And we can’t understand why.

And like what I said, It is okay for me to feel sad than to feel nothing. The things I’ve just written right now are not even half of the things I want to say but I am waiting for the time that I would be able to express all the thoughts and feelings I have. We shouldn’t rush things to happen, we just always have to cherish each moment. So I guess this would end here, see you on my next blog. Wander with Me!